Do something that scares you

I’m very proud of my little lady.  We went to the pool yesterday and she did something that really really scared her: She jumped off the edge of the pool into my waiting arms.  I saw the fear in her eyes…  She stood there, nervous, scared, contemplating.  She told me that she was scared that she was going to “fall and bump her head”.  We tried a few trial jumps where I would hold her hand and she would jump in.  But the scary part was jumping with out my hands to hold her.  She had a nervous laughter, looked at me, looked at the water, frowned, laughed again, furled her little brows and gathered little drops of courage only to refrain from jumping.  After a few moments of encouraging her, telling her that daddy was going to be there for her, she jumped.  And it was so great to see her trust me, to see her believe in herself.. and do something that scared her…

May you always trust that daddy is here for you my love.  And may you never hold back on doing something because you are afraid.  You are brave and can do anything.  Daddy is proud of you.  The world is yours to conquer. 

When I’m afraid, I will trust in you.  In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. 

-Psalm 56:3

Through the ears of a child..


In the afternoon as Seanna and I laid on the hammock, I asked her to close her eyes and listen to the birds sing. She closed them and after a few seconds, she started giggling. I asked her what was so funny. She responded “The birds are singing my name“.

Indeed, my love. The birds are singing your name… May you always find joy in the simple beauties of life…

…Sometimes, I wonder who is teaching who about life…

The stork has been given notice..

“Between you and me a new door opened
and someone, still faceless,
was waiting for us there.” -Neruda

“Entre tú y yo se abrió una nueva puerta
y alguien, sin rostro aún,
allí nos esperaba.” – Neruda

And so it is..
It has happened again.
Her and I.
We have linked each other’s souls.
Hand in hand, we have escaped to that secret place that we have visited once before
where entwined, with tenderness — with fury,
reached out to touch the core of our love,
and touched the tree of life with our bare hands. Continue reading

Tecumseh’s full poem from Act of Valor movie

Saw the movie Act of Valor tonight.  At the end, it had this amazing poem by Native American Shawnee Chief, Tecumseh.  I wanted to share it with you all.  It’s truly amazing and I hope that it inspires you to make this life count, to pursue noble undertakings, and live so that when it’s time to be called Home, you have used all your talents and have no regrets.

– Alex

So live your life that the fear of death can never enter your heart.
Trouble no one about their religion;
respect others in their view, and demand that they respect yours.
Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life.
Seek to make your life long and its purpose in the service of your people.
Prepare a noble death song for the day when you go over the great divide.

Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend,
even a stranger, when in a lonely place.
Show respect to all people and grovel to none.

When you arise in the morning give thanks for the food and for the joy of living.
If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself.

Abuse no one and no thing, for abuse turns the wise ones to fools
and robs the spirit of its vision.

When it comes your time to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled
with the fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep
and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way.
Sing your death song and die like a hero going home.

– Tecumseh

Each sunrise, sunset is a blessing.

While thinking about my 2011 personal goals, I reflected upon 2010.

Last year I attended a funeral.

That night, a young widow cried in front a casket.  She cried with despair, hurting from unimaginable pain.  She wept with her eyes closed and head down, weakened, desolate.   Her eyes, fixed on the open casket, acknowledged no one else.  The condolences from those arriving went unheard.  She sat there motionless, staring at her lover’s cold, pale body, unreactive to the cries around her or the commotion of those that came to pay their respects and saw the deceased for the first time.  She sat there, with dimmed, dark wet eyes, staring at the casket.   Staring at the casket, in her own silence. A silence that was interrupted by her own hurtful, sudden weeping, brought on perhaps by an unsuspecting memory of their wedding or random night where he professed his love to her.

She yearned for her lover’s warmth, for his breath, for his voice to say her name one more time.  But he laid there, motionless.  Somehow she gathered strength to stand up.  Slowly, with heavy steps, carrying with her the anchor of pain and loss, she approached the casket.  With careful tenderness she caressed his hair, his eyes, his cheeks as she ran her fingers down his face.  Her shaky fingers stopped at his lips, lips that she had kissed thousands of times before, lips that would never again kiss her.  She addressed him, now in his final resting place, uttering words that sometimes we all take for granted or do not say enough.  She told him that she loved him.  And thanked him for making her happy.
But there was no response.

After the funeral, I took my wife home.  The ride home was very somber.  We just held hands and didn’t say much.  We were absorbing everything we had witnessed.  Everything we had learned.  Upon arriving, I opened a bottle of my best wine.  Wine that I had been saving for a very special occasion, our 5th year Anniversary that was still 2 years away.  And I told her that that night we would celebrate we could have dinner together, celebrate that we could hold each other, and that we must be conscious of and appreciate that simple fact.  Appreciate that an “I love you too” can be heard after an “I love you”.

We must not take those we love for granted for we never know when their time has come.
We never know when the last “I love you” has been said.

 She will see him again.   But she will have to wait.  For now, she can only see him in some distant memory on a rainy night.  Or a dream.  Or the clouds.

In the meantime, you and I, we must value, must take advantage of the precious, invaluable ability to call our mothers, our fathers, sisters, brothers.. our soul mate, and tell them that we love them.  Tell them that they mean so much to our lives.  How important they are.  How empty it would be without them.  We must appreciate the fact that when we say such words, we can hear a response…

Unlike that night, that night when a widow cried in front of a casket.
And reaffirmed in me the feeling that
every day and every night is a blessing.


Happy Birthday Seanna!


Happy Birthday to my sweet Seanna Sofia… Oh Seanna, Seanna Sofia… How I love thee! What gifts you have brought to my world! What a blessing it is to hold you, to put you to sleep, to read to you and hear your laughter! How gracious God has been to us! Thank you Lord for this beautiful, sweet and healthy little angel! Happy Birthday my dearest Seanna! Happy Big 2!